Auto-Pilot
November 3rd, 2009 . by Erin The GreatIt finally happened! After 10 long years of pain and agony I have finally had my long awaited knee surgery. Yay.
Weirdly enough, and although I’m glad to have had surgery I have hit that point in life where you basically stop caring about pretty much everything that comes my way. Has anyone else gone through this? It’s more than just ‘whatever, I don’t care’, and more along the lines of ‘that’s nice, next’. I’m not actually sure when this momentous occasion happened, in fact I think it slipped in with such subtlety that I didn’t notice until one day I was that person with the straight eye brows and barely a sense of humor. What happened? Is it caused by the weird weather Texas has been having? Is it because the year 2009 has been the year from Hell? Maybe it’s because so many things tend to happen constantly at the same time and instead of taking them every time, you get fed up, shut down and morph into this weird ‘auto pilot mode’ and compartmentalize until you’re ready to deal with crap. Maybe that’s it. Seriously, is there someone else who has gone through this, cause I’m really not a fan of the autopilot! Speak up people, speak up!
I definitely have serious times of apathy when I just don’t care about what’s going on. It’s hard to get past it…I don’t know how I usually do it. I guess just look for something exciting/different to come up and focus on it?
But hooray for fixing your knee!
I notice I hit that point when there is a lot going on that I don’t have control over. It can suck, but sometimes it’s kind of nice to just roll with the punches.
I think it was the year. I look around and there’s a lot of people in that autopilot mode. I blame my own autopilot on my less than satisfying job. Oh to be young and unemployable. :\