Erin The Great

What do you do when you get to the point where you have SEVERAL stories to share, but you can’t because of who reads your blog. You don’t want to get in trouble with family and friends, or even worse ‘Dooced’. You pass off your lack of creativity as, ‘Writer’s Block’ when all you really want to do is scream.

Which should I talk about first? I have a really good friend needing additional treatment for his cancer that should have went into remission. How about getting in massive amounts of trouble at work over ‘excessive internet usage’ when the one day it was in excess, was the day I tried selling my friend’s cars on KSL as a practical joke. There’s always the story of the ex (that’s now married) that made me feel like I was never good enough, so much so, that I almost literally killed myself for 2 years straight with no break from school even though I had multiple hospital visits and a few surgeries. Now I have to take a few semesters off just to recover. No, I know! You want to here about the time I borderline alienated one of my favorite men that I absolutely love and admire because I decided to turn into a jealous bag of crazy. Maybe I’ll tell you about the time I battled hard-core depression because my body decided it didn’t need to sleep for almost 6 months. I didn’t even know that lack of sleep could amplify depression…who knew?

I realize that I have a tendency to blow things out of proportion, but unfortunately this is just the last couple of weeks in the life of ‘Erin’. The only reason I’m even going off about all of this, is because If I DON’T get this off my chest, I’m going to explode! I’m usually used to life hitting hard, hitting fast, but this is ridiculous. I’m grouping them all together because the last thing I want is for my blog to become a ‘Complain O’blog’. A blog where people check it and think to themselves ‘what is she complaining about now?’ I don’t want that! So, I group the crazy stories together, eat my favorite comfort food (Totino’s pizza bites), watch a chick flick, cry and go to bed. Hopefully I’ll wake up, feel rejuvenated, move past my crazy month, become a good friend again, and turn back into myself. Wish me luck and thank you for listening!